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Now's the Time
This winter is taking a mental toll on me hard. I don't mind small towns, heck I don't even mind Iowa really. It's just not where we had planned on being this year. As we got thrown for a loop last summer. And we are making the most of it. We're not quite as broke here because our rent's pretty reasonable. We live near Chris' parents and he's got a job at a Natural Food Market Co-op as the general manager and Enoch's doing so nicely in school and has become quite the reader now. We're doing decent, hell we even signed up for Netflix and get movies on demand on our Wii. Iris is getting more and more clear in her speech as she enters the 2 year mark. I am being a little tongue and cheek but I am ready to move on.
I am fully aware of how we got here. I remember it clear as a bell. We moved to Los Angeles to get more sun, to be close to my Mother and Father and very good friends. However, things soon went 'south' with good ol' mom and dad. And it wasn't the first time either. The days into Iris' birth were beautiful but bittersweet as well, my mom and dad came to visit and abruptly left on sour terms. Let's say it's been an ongoing theme in my relationship with my parents. Luckily I have amazing friends who know probably more about me than my mother and father ever will. And why should I let this sudden brake off of biological familial blood run me asunder. I am not defined by their fears right? Anyway, heavy stuff. Too heavy for this blog I bet so I'm clearing out the mental junk. It's my early version of Spring cleaning. As I look out from window to window on a snowy day I remind myself how very good I have it. I'm not homeless, I have my own family of two kids and an awesome husband who's been there through all this challenging self analysis. Last year the blows just kept on coming, I experienced other losses, which I can't go into here but every day the sun gave way to morning and things began all over again. And hey, Iowa's got a charm all it's own.
So now's the time to get going. I don't want to hold back or let my mental trips overtake progress. And maybe just maybe we can create a gem out of this.
2 comments:
Everything you experience in life both good and bad will someway benefit you in the end. Life lessons aren't always the best of fun on my list, but after the smoke clears you will find clarity and growth which is the up most greatest gift. With growth you find inner peace and strength to become who you were meant to be. You are doing exactly what you should be doing at this point in your life. Trying to find your balance. It's almost like you were taken from everything and set right down in the middle of nowhere in order for you reflect and heal. Your doing it cousin, keep pushing, your almost there. love you.
you said it lady. thanks you 'brang it home', as usual! love you.
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